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Do you ever doubt?

If you’ve read my first post, then you know that this is something I struggle with. Doubt in myself is a constant battle. Right now, however, I want to know, do you ever doubt God? Do you ever feel as though He’s abandoned you, or forgotten about you? Or maybe He’s ignoring you? I know my words are little, they don’t even compare to the influence of most. But, let me reassure you, my words are most certainly true. They come from a place deep within me, a place that I visit ALL. THE. TIME. He has not forgotten, He has not left and He is not ignoring you. God is not a petulant child, He does not ‘pay you back’ for doing wrong. You do that to yourself when you stray away from Him.

But, that is not my point for tonight. Sometimes when we feel abandoned or ignored it is because we have asked for something and the answer is either ‘no’ or ‘not right now’. Sometimes, we mistake His silence for abandonment. Have faith, hold on, He’s still there. He’s still listening. He hears every word of your heart, He hears the words you cannot say. Those moments when you simply close your eyes and whisper, “Oh, God,” He hears those too. He knows what is in your heart. As I said, my words are small, there is no reason for you to listen to me, you don’t know me.

Faith is what anchors you to the belief that God is doing what is best for your life. You might not understand it, you might not agree with it. But if you are one of His children, if you have given your life to Him, then have no fear in the knowledge that He has your best interests at heart. I’m not here to tout my Christianity, I’m not going to throw my beliefs in your face. You’re welcome to leave anytime. I hope you won’t. I want you to find peace, I want you to believe. I know it’s hard, trust me, I’ve been through the fire. That’s why I named the blog the way I did.

The fact is, life is hard. Saved or lost, life is hard, and being saved doesn’t make it any easier. It just makes it worth all the trouble. Today I got the answer to a prayer that I have been praying over for the better part of six months. Not my longest request, not by a long shot. Did I lose faith? I wanted to. I doubted that I was asking for the right thing. So I turned it all over to Him. Instead of telling God what I wanted to happen, I let it go and asked Him to do what was best for my life. Sometimes all He’s waiting for is for us to surrender our will and accept His will.

Have you ever asked for help with something and a half-hour later you’re worrying the problem all over again? I do that. Then I have to give it back again, but it’s almost as though I keep my fingers on it, just in case I want to worry about it again. God tells us not to worry. Trust, trust in Him. One of the hardest things to do is let go. Whether it’s to let go of our pain, our anger, our despair, our worry, or our fear. We want to hold onto it, it’s in our nature to hold on, don’t. Don’t hold on to all of that. Let it go and let faith, hope, trust, and love take its place.

I don’t know why I had to write this tonight. I’m not going to ask why. I’m just doing what God has asked me to do. If this helps a single person then I have done my job. Just hold on. The answer is coming. I don’t know when, I don’t know how, I don’t know the answer, but I believe with all my heart that HE. WILL. ANSWER.

1 thought on “Do you ever doubt?”

  1. God is good. All the time! In my own life, I have learned that just when I feel like giving up is when the breakthrough is about to happen… And that’s when the enemy fights the hardest. Congratulations on giving him a swift kick in the teeth!

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